an outcast

this will be last post of the day...

Everyday i feel like an outcast at school, at home, even walking around town.  I eat lunch by the staircase at lunch because i hate hearing the things that are apparently wrong with me that others at lunch point out but luckily i have a friend whose by the stairs with me most days and helps make it better.  but anyways i feel like an outcast mostly because of the things i like.  Yeah i like Lady Gaga, Justin Bieber, Katy Perry, etc.  is there really something wrong with that i dont think so but maybe there is.  i love writing and poetry and reading oh but theres something wrong with that to mostly because im a guy and well you know guys cant like that stuff its weird.  The worst thing i get criticed of all though glee why because of all the gays, and the singing and everything else its ridiculous i can't wait to get out of here i'm sick of being called a freak or a fag or complete loser for being who i am whats worse is some of the people i call my friends are the worst offenders but i crack a fake smile an act ok because its either that or being alone.  Its so sad i can relate more to girls then i can guys am i cant help it in fact some of my best friends are girls an i tell them everything because i actually trust them.  Only two people know of a secret of mine im scared to admit because then i really would be alone because in this town its so unacceptable and wrong that you might as well be dead ugh i guess overall im tired of trying to hid who i am because in this town its so indifferent that i wouldnt even be considered a good enough person to be around. ive been strong though ive only broken down and cried twice which is good at least for me... only a couple more months then its adios to this place well at least this school theres the silver lining right? ugh..... :(